Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Love. Light. Prayers.

Three things that my family needs right now. I am writing this blog with mixed emotions. I am down. I am sad. I am scared. I am uneasy.

My mom has been suffering for an illness for a while now. But being the fighter that she is, she has been dealing with it for almost five months now where I personally think that had it been someone who doesn't have the same spirit like my Mom's would have given up earlier. I remember her saying she's fighting for it everyday for my sisters who are staying with her.

Just this afternoon, I got a text message from one of my sisters that my Mom is in pain and needed to be rushed in the hospital. So as I was at work, I told that to one of my colleagues and being the nice person that he is, he offered me calling back home using the Skype on his girlfriend's iMac.

Do you know the feeling when your Mom cries over the phone for an unbearable pain and you cannot do anything about it cos you are on the other side of the world? I just wanted to take all the pain away from her.

She has always been healthy before, but since this is something that runs in the family. We cannot do anything about that. I feel like it's something inevitable.

Darn it!!

I have already lost my Dad. I cannot afford to loose HER now. Not yet. :(

Friday, December 24, 2010