Friday, December 24, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
Multiple Choice
Hello sweetsies!
I just want to make a quick update. I am getting married SOON!
THIS will be better than the royal marriage. Hah!
Meet my future husand, Trace.
Anyway, so how are ya'll doin'?
Whoa! Prolly cos I am really busy with work everyday and I finish at normally around 10 at nights, I think I am missing on a lot of things. But, part of me is okay with it cos seriously, I enjoy working there. I love the place, the people, and the Nordics. Hah!
Well, Christmas is really just around the corner. Uhm, I wonder, what would be my christmas wish this year? Uhm, let me think :
A. A hot Alex Skarsgard-looking Nordic wearing nothing but wrapped in red ribbon.
B. A skinny french skater boy
C. An athletic italian football player slash planning to go join the military boytoy.
D. All of the above.
ANSWER : DDDDDDDDDDD!!!!
I mean, all of the above! Hah!
Dear Santa, I have been a very very good doll this year. I think I deserve them for Christmas. Love, Carlo.
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
I just want to make a quick update. I am getting married SOON!
THIS will be better than the royal marriage. Hah!
Meet my future husand, Trace.
Anyway, so how are ya'll doin'?
Whoa! Prolly cos I am really busy with work everyday and I finish at normally around 10 at nights, I think I am missing on a lot of things. But, part of me is okay with it cos seriously, I enjoy working there. I love the place, the people, and the Nordics. Hah!
Well, Christmas is really just around the corner. Uhm, I wonder, what would be my christmas wish this year? Uhm, let me think :
A. A hot Alex Skarsgard-looking Nordic wearing nothing but wrapped in red ribbon.
B. A skinny french skater boy
C. An athletic italian football player slash planning to go join the military boytoy.
D. All of the above.
ANSWER : DDDDDDDDDDD!!!!
I mean, all of the above! Hah!
Dear Santa, I have been a very very good doll this year. I think I deserve them for Christmas. Love, Carlo.
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
Friday, November 05, 2010
The Day I Learned How To Multi Task
Hey everyone!
I'm back!
(Wow, this is so Carrie Bradshaw. I'm sat in my bed with my cigarette and ash tray beside me and making a blog.)
Okay, then I should live her character tonight. I'm going to start this with a quote from her "When men attempt bold gestures, generally it's considered romantic. When women do it, it's often considered desperate or psycho.”
So this afternoon, I did something really really funny and crazy! There is this guy from the Nordics group who I really find hot. He's tall, fair and cute. He's got the best smile I've seen in a while. I am really a sucker for cute smiles and he just hits the spot. On my first day on the floor, I was sat behind him. His voice was so deep and sexy. I swear he could tell me to bend over anytime he wants. Hah! So that was the first day in my life that I learned how to multi task. Face the computer and do the work while looking at him and at the same time have an orgasm. Hah! That was hard work!
I talked to their supervisor to know his name, she said it's Thomas. He's Finnish. Oh damn, why am I suddenly being dragged by these hot northern europeans.
This afternoon I told my fag hag at work that I am going to do something really psychotic. I told her, I am going to send a message to Thomas (a french guy in our training class) but I will mistakenly send it to Thomas (the nordic guy) and we will see what happens! Since their names on the iChat are next to each other. So I was like :
"Hey Thomas. you still have the video you made with the french group during the training?"
Then I sent it to him. I then saw the supervisor and him look back at me. OMG! Like I literally hid infront of my iMac. Like I wanted to evaporate right there and then. That was so desperate. Hah!
What can I do, everytime he effing passes by either inside the office or outside when I smoke, he would smile at me. Then I would turn around and have an orgasm again, hah! And then I learned what multiple orgasm means, hah! Whoa! I know this is really getting so sexual. He's delicately lovely and insanely delicious. Like what Carrie would always say, "Every once in awhile, a girl has to indulge herself.”
Okay, enough of this. He's so fine and nice. He's friendly. Let's respect him. No more dirty thoughts about him!
*looks at the door of my room and imagine him comming in just wearing hot white boxer briefs*
Hah!
I will just end this up with anther quote from Carrie.
“I write about sex, not love. What do I know about love?”
:(
PS : I am no longer dating that brazillan hottie. I am officially single so, HOLLER!
Another PS : Photos stolen from Facebook and Badoo. Sorry boys, love ya'll.
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
I'm back!
(Wow, this is so Carrie Bradshaw. I'm sat in my bed with my cigarette and ash tray beside me and making a blog.)
Okay, then I should live her character tonight. I'm going to start this with a quote from her "When men attempt bold gestures, generally it's considered romantic. When women do it, it's often considered desperate or psycho.”
So this afternoon, I did something really really funny and crazy! There is this guy from the Nordics group who I really find hot. He's tall, fair and cute. He's got the best smile I've seen in a while. I am really a sucker for cute smiles and he just hits the spot. On my first day on the floor, I was sat behind him. His voice was so deep and sexy. I swear he could tell me to bend over anytime he wants. Hah! So that was the first day in my life that I learned how to multi task. Face the computer and do the work while looking at him and at the same time have an orgasm. Hah! That was hard work!
I talked to their supervisor to know his name, she said it's Thomas. He's Finnish. Oh damn, why am I suddenly being dragged by these hot northern europeans.
This afternoon I told my fag hag at work that I am going to do something really psychotic. I told her, I am going to send a message to Thomas (a french guy in our training class) but I will mistakenly send it to Thomas (the nordic guy) and we will see what happens! Since their names on the iChat are next to each other. So I was like :
"Hey Thomas. you still have the video you made with the french group during the training?"
Then I sent it to him. I then saw the supervisor and him look back at me. OMG! Like I literally hid infront of my iMac. Like I wanted to evaporate right there and then. That was so desperate. Hah!
What can I do, everytime he effing passes by either inside the office or outside when I smoke, he would smile at me. Then I would turn around and have an orgasm again, hah! And then I learned what multiple orgasm means, hah! Whoa! I know this is really getting so sexual. He's delicately lovely and insanely delicious. Like what Carrie would always say, "Every once in awhile, a girl has to indulge herself.”
Okay, enough of this. He's so fine and nice. He's friendly. Let's respect him. No more dirty thoughts about him!
*looks at the door of my room and imagine him comming in just wearing hot white boxer briefs*
Hah!
I will just end this up with anther quote from Carrie.
“I write about sex, not love. What do I know about love?”
:(
PS : I am no longer dating that brazillan hottie. I am officially single so, HOLLER!
Another PS : Photos stolen from Facebook and Badoo. Sorry boys, love ya'll.
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Forgive Me Father, I Felt Lustful.
PLAY THIS FIRST. LET'S GET INTO THE VIBE!
I know I haven't been blogging lately. Forgive me dolls, been busy with work and you know, a lil social life to get somethin' somethin'. Like I have to go to bed early everyday cos I need to get up at like seven in the morning! Who the fuck does that? I actually kind of like it. Bringing everything back to normal.
Well, I ain't gonna be blabbing about sex and all cos I have't been laid for the longest time now. I know, right? That's like so freakin' sad. Hah!
Well, two weeks ago I started working for Apple. We are still on training though. So what makes training exciting? NICOLAS! Woo hoo talking about a sex on a stcik! He's so fuckin' sexy. He's got this Jesus Christ slash Collin Farrell slash dirrrty french look to him. Now tell me, don't you wanna go to bed with him? Hah! Imagine going to bed with someone who looks like Collin and Jesus, LORD HAVE MERCY! Hah!
The only prolem is, he's straight! Ugh! I know, I am always dragged by these hot straight guysh lately! Which I know I shouldn't be.
He's kind of like a virgin when it comes to training but seriously he knows everything about Apple. He's very technical. The only problem is English is not his native tounge. He's french. And that's why when he talks about gigabytes and all, I personally find it sexay. The way he pronounces words. Tee hee! Some of them told me they feel sleepy when Nico speaks, but I don't know! I don't feel that. Prolly cos when he's speaking infront of the class I imagine him noodie? Hah!
OMFG, forgive me father, I felt lustful.
You should see how sexy he looks like even if he makes some funny expressions with his face. He's young. He's hot.
Unfortunately, well, most of the time, some of us actually are having problems understanding him. I can't balme Nico though. Imagine, in the training room, you've got italians, french, english peeps, irish, spanish, asians, germans and dutch. Nico has to reach out on each and every one of us. That ain't easy!
So yesterday we had an assessment. I made it! hah! Passing was 80% and I got 80% hah! How blonde is that? It was luck. Plain luck.
One day, we had to do a presentation infront of the class. Our group's representative was Thomas, another french guy. So i transferred to his seat just to get a good view of Nico, oops I meant the presentation. The chair next to me was vacant though so Nico sat there while we were listening to the presentation. You know I was kind of imagining him wearing a hot sexy white boxer breifs. Damn! Can I have him for my breakfast right now?
So there he was, sitting beside me. Wowza! He smells really good. It wasn't so strong but the perfume he was wearing really suits him. Very dark and mysterious. Then suddenly I noticed some motions. He was raising his shirt up his abs to check on something. He was facing me. So I am guessing I was the only one who saw it. I couldn't help it, so I glanced at him. There it was the sight of his gorgeous firm abs. I drooled for like 5 seconds. Hah! Then I noticed he was wearing a red checkered boxer shorts and not breifs. Sad!
I literally had to move back to my chair cos I might not be able to resist temptation and lick the hell out of his abs. Hah!
Anyway, I have to do laundry today. So Imma talk to you later dolls.
PS : Photos stolen from Badoo and Facebook. Love ya boys!
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
I know I haven't been blogging lately. Forgive me dolls, been busy with work and you know, a lil social life to get somethin' somethin'. Like I have to go to bed early everyday cos I need to get up at like seven in the morning! Who the fuck does that? I actually kind of like it. Bringing everything back to normal.
Well, I ain't gonna be blabbing about sex and all cos I have't been laid for the longest time now. I know, right? That's like so freakin' sad. Hah!
Well, two weeks ago I started working for Apple. We are still on training though. So what makes training exciting? NICOLAS! Woo hoo talking about a sex on a stcik! He's so fuckin' sexy. He's got this Jesus Christ slash Collin Farrell slash dirrrty french look to him. Now tell me, don't you wanna go to bed with him? Hah! Imagine going to bed with someone who looks like Collin and Jesus, LORD HAVE MERCY! Hah!
The only prolem is, he's straight! Ugh! I know, I am always dragged by these hot straight guysh lately! Which I know I shouldn't be.
He's kind of like a virgin when it comes to training but seriously he knows everything about Apple. He's very technical. The only problem is English is not his native tounge. He's french. And that's why when he talks about gigabytes and all, I personally find it sexay. The way he pronounces words. Tee hee! Some of them told me they feel sleepy when Nico speaks, but I don't know! I don't feel that. Prolly cos when he's speaking infront of the class I imagine him noodie? Hah!
OMFG, forgive me father, I felt lustful.
You should see how sexy he looks like even if he makes some funny expressions with his face. He's young. He's hot.
Unfortunately, well, most of the time, some of us actually are having problems understanding him. I can't balme Nico though. Imagine, in the training room, you've got italians, french, english peeps, irish, spanish, asians, germans and dutch. Nico has to reach out on each and every one of us. That ain't easy!
So yesterday we had an assessment. I made it! hah! Passing was 80% and I got 80% hah! How blonde is that? It was luck. Plain luck.
One day, we had to do a presentation infront of the class. Our group's representative was Thomas, another french guy. So i transferred to his seat just to get a good view of Nico, oops I meant the presentation. The chair next to me was vacant though so Nico sat there while we were listening to the presentation. You know I was kind of imagining him wearing a hot sexy white boxer breifs. Damn! Can I have him for my breakfast right now?
So there he was, sitting beside me. Wowza! He smells really good. It wasn't so strong but the perfume he was wearing really suits him. Very dark and mysterious. Then suddenly I noticed some motions. He was raising his shirt up his abs to check on something. He was facing me. So I am guessing I was the only one who saw it. I couldn't help it, so I glanced at him. There it was the sight of his gorgeous firm abs. I drooled for like 5 seconds. Hah! Then I noticed he was wearing a red checkered boxer shorts and not breifs. Sad!
I literally had to move back to my chair cos I might not be able to resist temptation and lick the hell out of his abs. Hah!
Anyway, I have to do laundry today. So Imma talk to you later dolls.
PS : Photos stolen from Badoo and Facebook. Love ya boys!
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Homoerotic Tendancies
Hey everyone!
It's been over a month since I posted a blog. That's becuase I was on vacation. I went to my hometown, the gorgeous islands of the Philippines. I spent 27 days there mainly just being surrounded by family and friends. Infact, this year, I celebrated my birthday with all of them. And it was the best gift ever. Being able to spend the most special day of your year surrouded by the people you love.
I had a blast seeing all my childhood friends and cousins again.
But anyway, so yesterday I did something very very VERY bad. I had this girl friend who uses Badoo. Unfortunately Badoo here in Spain is branded as an online site where you get to chat with people for hook-ups and one night stands. Literally all the ads and shout outs of people using it are sex related. Then I didn't know she made a shout out which was something like "I am looking for guys who are okay with gays." And she told she did it for me. I just laughed when she told me this.
Then someone replied to that. He has the same name as mine. He said he was straight.
I saw his pictures. He was okay. Then we already started chatting on MSN. I can tell you this very frankly that I have the poorest gaydar ever. I don't know what's wrong with me that even last night I was at McDonald's waiting for a friend when I saw a cute italian guy who was wearing a shirt which says "I ♥ Lady Gaga" and i really thought he was not gay. Damn!
And so going back to this guy I am talking about, he was a bore. Seriously. Prolly cos he was straight and I am not and we have a lot of differences.
(I look awful here cos I just gotup from bed that time)
Then suddenly I realized he was doing something. He's got lots of movements. I realized he was jerking off. So I got turned on and asked him if I can see it. He said yes. Damn he was big!
Then the unexpected happened. He said he loves it when his ex girlfriend would play with his ass. He showed me his buns and started playing with it. I was in complete shock that right now he's completely naked. He even showed me the dildo he uses for his girls and acted like he was playing it with his ass.
Then he asked me if I'd like some loving that night. I said no. He said he's got a car and can pick me up anywhere. I actually know where his place is cos it's just near my workplace. I told him if we're gonna do something, I am afraid I don't have a place. Not that I wanna do something with him, I was just playing with him. And by the way, he's still masturbating. He said, we can do it in his car. I was like, uh uh hold up, wait a minute! Hell to the no. I ain't a cheap hooker.
He just smiled. And you know what shocked me the most, he inserted the dildo up his ass. My jaw dropped. Hah! So a straight guy uses a dildo for himself?
I closed the video chat. He asked why. I told him, that I am not into this kind of stuffs. He got sad.
I knew it, straight guys have homoerotic tendancies.
That's all for now, goodnight everyone!
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
It's been over a month since I posted a blog. That's becuase I was on vacation. I went to my hometown, the gorgeous islands of the Philippines. I spent 27 days there mainly just being surrounded by family and friends. Infact, this year, I celebrated my birthday with all of them. And it was the best gift ever. Being able to spend the most special day of your year surrouded by the people you love.
I had a blast seeing all my childhood friends and cousins again.
But anyway, so yesterday I did something very very VERY bad. I had this girl friend who uses Badoo. Unfortunately Badoo here in Spain is branded as an online site where you get to chat with people for hook-ups and one night stands. Literally all the ads and shout outs of people using it are sex related. Then I didn't know she made a shout out which was something like "I am looking for guys who are okay with gays." And she told she did it for me. I just laughed when she told me this.
Then someone replied to that. He has the same name as mine. He said he was straight.
I saw his pictures. He was okay. Then we already started chatting on MSN. I can tell you this very frankly that I have the poorest gaydar ever. I don't know what's wrong with me that even last night I was at McDonald's waiting for a friend when I saw a cute italian guy who was wearing a shirt which says "I ♥ Lady Gaga" and i really thought he was not gay. Damn!
And so going back to this guy I am talking about, he was a bore. Seriously. Prolly cos he was straight and I am not and we have a lot of differences.
(I look awful here cos I just gotup from bed that time)
Then suddenly I realized he was doing something. He's got lots of movements. I realized he was jerking off. So I got turned on and asked him if I can see it. He said yes. Damn he was big!
Then the unexpected happened. He said he loves it when his ex girlfriend would play with his ass. He showed me his buns and started playing with it. I was in complete shock that right now he's completely naked. He even showed me the dildo he uses for his girls and acted like he was playing it with his ass.
Then he asked me if I'd like some loving that night. I said no. He said he's got a car and can pick me up anywhere. I actually know where his place is cos it's just near my workplace. I told him if we're gonna do something, I am afraid I don't have a place. Not that I wanna do something with him, I was just playing with him. And by the way, he's still masturbating. He said, we can do it in his car. I was like, uh uh hold up, wait a minute! Hell to the no. I ain't a cheap hooker.
He just smiled. And you know what shocked me the most, he inserted the dildo up his ass. My jaw dropped. Hah! So a straight guy uses a dildo for himself?
I closed the video chat. He asked why. I told him, that I am not into this kind of stuffs. He got sad.
I knew it, straight guys have homoerotic tendancies.
That's all for now, goodnight everyone!
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
Friday, August 06, 2010
The Elevator.
Hey ya'll dolls! Whatuppers?
First, four more days to go and I'm off to the Philippines for vacation baby. Yeah! Like I am friggin' excited. I already packed some of the things that I need to bring with me but I am not done yet. Ugh! I really suck on packing and organizing my stuffs.
What else? Uhm, I decided to go blonde yesterday, but I didn't like how it turned out so now, I am a brunette. hah!
Okay, so back to my confessions. Last week, I spent most of my mornings at the beach. Like literally when I get up from my bed, I go straight to the beach to take the sun. One morning, I was not really myself yet cos I just got up and still feeling sleepy and all. I pressed the call button for the elevator but I saw it went up cos there was someone inside it. Then it went down and I realized that the guy who was inside it was still there. He looks like aroud 30ish. Taller than me. Clean and a little buff. One can really notice he works out.
I've seen him before and thought he was cute and straight. But never talked to him. I just say HOLA to my neighbors.
So I entered the elevator and closed the door. Got my mp4 playing, tweeting on my mobile phone. Then suddenly the guy behind me grabbed my ass! What did I do?
Nothing! I know it's slutty and all but I just let him play with my buns! hah! Then he came closer, trying to press his tool behind me. He started to kiss the back of my neck. Then he realized that we are already on the ground floor. He pressed number four again and he said, we'll go to his place. I was really nervous and horny already. Nervous cos I thought he was married cos I always see him with a girl and in fact they live together. Horny cos damn! This is a hot south american!
Then we entered their pad. I asked him who lives with him. He said, family. He asked me to follow him to a room. I did. I was shocked initially cos he started undressing. Then there it was, a big piece of uncut meat infront of me and the only word that came out my mouth was JODER (fuck). He looked at me like a baby waiting for my move. So I pushed him to the bed and startes sucking him. I am amazed at his age he was able to maintain his body.
I actually forgot to remove my sun glasses while doing him. I asked him if he likes it, he said it's gooooooood.
Then I jerked him while I kissed his nipples. Then I heard the moan of a guy who's close to his orgasm. I moved backwards. I didn't wanna go to the beach with my top stained with cum and all. He came. He grabbed my right hand around his cock so it wouldn't make a mess. He was still panting.
He guided me to the restroom so I could wash my hands.
And so I asked him, where is he from. He said he's from Colombia. I asked him if he's married, he didn't answered back. He started washing his cock.
I said, I had to go. He said wait for hm on the elevator. I didn't. I know I did something very very VERY bad. On my way out of their pad, I saw a family picure which broke my heart. Why? cos there was a little girl between him and a lady.
On the elevator I even had my mouth covered with my hands. I was upset at the same time guilty!
So I went to the bus stop and I saw him on the other side of the road staring at me. I freaked out. Luckily the bus arrived already so I jumped in.
This morning, I went to the grocery, I bumped into him. And I wanted to say hi to him, but he moved away. Like nothing freakin' happened.
That made me feel sad and RAPED! lol.
PS : photos of guys from Barcelona. Stolen from Badoo and Facebook. Love ya'll boys!
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
First, four more days to go and I'm off to the Philippines for vacation baby. Yeah! Like I am friggin' excited. I already packed some of the things that I need to bring with me but I am not done yet. Ugh! I really suck on packing and organizing my stuffs.
What else? Uhm, I decided to go blonde yesterday, but I didn't like how it turned out so now, I am a brunette. hah!
Okay, so back to my confessions. Last week, I spent most of my mornings at the beach. Like literally when I get up from my bed, I go straight to the beach to take the sun. One morning, I was not really myself yet cos I just got up and still feeling sleepy and all. I pressed the call button for the elevator but I saw it went up cos there was someone inside it. Then it went down and I realized that the guy who was inside it was still there. He looks like aroud 30ish. Taller than me. Clean and a little buff. One can really notice he works out.
I've seen him before and thought he was cute and straight. But never talked to him. I just say HOLA to my neighbors.
So I entered the elevator and closed the door. Got my mp4 playing, tweeting on my mobile phone. Then suddenly the guy behind me grabbed my ass! What did I do?
Nothing! I know it's slutty and all but I just let him play with my buns! hah! Then he came closer, trying to press his tool behind me. He started to kiss the back of my neck. Then he realized that we are already on the ground floor. He pressed number four again and he said, we'll go to his place. I was really nervous and horny already. Nervous cos I thought he was married cos I always see him with a girl and in fact they live together. Horny cos damn! This is a hot south american!
Then we entered their pad. I asked him who lives with him. He said, family. He asked me to follow him to a room. I did. I was shocked initially cos he started undressing. Then there it was, a big piece of uncut meat infront of me and the only word that came out my mouth was JODER (fuck). He looked at me like a baby waiting for my move. So I pushed him to the bed and startes sucking him. I am amazed at his age he was able to maintain his body.
I actually forgot to remove my sun glasses while doing him. I asked him if he likes it, he said it's gooooooood.
Then I jerked him while I kissed his nipples. Then I heard the moan of a guy who's close to his orgasm. I moved backwards. I didn't wanna go to the beach with my top stained with cum and all. He came. He grabbed my right hand around his cock so it wouldn't make a mess. He was still panting.
He guided me to the restroom so I could wash my hands.
And so I asked him, where is he from. He said he's from Colombia. I asked him if he's married, he didn't answered back. He started washing his cock.
I said, I had to go. He said wait for hm on the elevator. I didn't. I know I did something very very VERY bad. On my way out of their pad, I saw a family picure which broke my heart. Why? cos there was a little girl between him and a lady.
On the elevator I even had my mouth covered with my hands. I was upset at the same time guilty!
So I went to the bus stop and I saw him on the other side of the road staring at me. I freaked out. Luckily the bus arrived already so I jumped in.
This morning, I went to the grocery, I bumped into him. And I wanted to say hi to him, but he moved away. Like nothing freakin' happened.
That made me feel sad and RAPED! lol.
PS : photos of guys from Barcelona. Stolen from Badoo and Facebook. Love ya'll boys!
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
Monday, July 26, 2010
I Literally Drooled!
I am soooo friggin' horny now. Shit!
I just saw everything all at once. The hot straight guy whose window is just adjacent to mine masturbated and he knows I was watching!
The gay couple too had sex and that was way intense than the last time. Gawd! They had like 100 positions. Sweaty!
Like I really can't find words now to describe what just happened! Fuck! *drools*
Anyway, enough of those sexually explicit thangs. I am really excited and static to the nth level cos I'll be going to the Philippines SOON! Two more weeks dolls. Got so many plans. Meet my third year classmates from La Salle. Watch UAAP basketball games. Bond with my real life doll sisters. Meet my long time highschool bestfriends. See all the babies of my girlfriends. Meet my GMAC Collections family. My BO's dolls. Bond with my cousins there. So many things to do and I am really freakin'excited now. :)
This afternoon I was jogging. And tell me how many guys winked at me while they saw me jog in style, hah! Seriously, even the drunk old guys sitting on the benches?! Like ewww!
So I tweeted about this crush from work. He's name is Alberto. He's tall, white and cute. Firm ass by the way. He said he jogs everyday too just to stay in shape. Sexay! :) I recently found out that his dad is actually a friend of my dad. Our dads used to work together. One day, he was fixing something. He called me to give him a handjob. LMAO! No, seriously, he called me to give him a hand. I was super close to him like I can already see his facial pores. I just stared at him for several seconds. He was so close that I can like give him a smack on the cheeks already.
I've actually had a crush on him eversince his first day at work. One day he was doing something on the patio of our work and I went there to help him. He asked me if our boss ordered me to help him. I said no, but if he doens't want me there, then I'll just leave. He said no. *blush*
He was playing with the water hose. He splashed water on me, which he didn't actually intended. I got pissed off (drama queen lol). I had to walk away to change. He called me but I never looked back.
Then I saw him on the parking area and he said sorry. I said it's fine. I asked him to go shower now cos I'm gonna be using the vestuary too. He said, he's just gonna shower at home cos he's got a ride anyway. I asked him if that was his car. He said no. Then there it was, he asked me if he can give me a ride home. I said YES! with a doll wink.
So we were inside his car. I asked him again, whose car is it then. He said it was from a girl friend who went to Ibiza and left him the car. I asked him, is she his partner. He said no. Just plain friend. I asked him how old is he. He said 27. I asked him if he is married. He said no and that he still lives with his parents.
I know, my questions were like running into circles. Like I said, I realized, I can talk to clients and be cool. Calm. Collected. Very educated the way I converse. Yet with guys, ones I like, get retarded and stupid. I fumble through words. I stutter. I smile too much. And the scariest of them all, is I act like myself - a DOLL.
So sad there weren't enough stoplights. :( So I arrived home.
Every now and then at work, he would always be the first one to say hola to me. Weird, I know.
There is also a girl from my work who's been meaning to go out with me. She even offered a ride home too but I always reject her. My co-workers would always tease me that I'd end up with her at the end of the day. Prolly cos we always fight. hah! On my mind, fuck me! Hell to the NO!
Anyways, tomorrow is gonna be a busy day for me. Reserve ticket. Shop. Beach. Jog.
Goodnight dolls.
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
ps : all the guys on the photos are from Barcelona. If you are the guy on the pic, sorry. I love you. Stole the photos from Badoo. :)
I just saw everything all at once. The hot straight guy whose window is just adjacent to mine masturbated and he knows I was watching!
The gay couple too had sex and that was way intense than the last time. Gawd! They had like 100 positions. Sweaty!
Like I really can't find words now to describe what just happened! Fuck! *drools*
Anyway, enough of those sexually explicit thangs. I am really excited and static to the nth level cos I'll be going to the Philippines SOON! Two more weeks dolls. Got so many plans. Meet my third year classmates from La Salle. Watch UAAP basketball games. Bond with my real life doll sisters. Meet my long time highschool bestfriends. See all the babies of my girlfriends. Meet my GMAC Collections family. My BO's dolls. Bond with my cousins there. So many things to do and I am really freakin'excited now. :)
This afternoon I was jogging. And tell me how many guys winked at me while they saw me jog in style, hah! Seriously, even the drunk old guys sitting on the benches?! Like ewww!
So I tweeted about this crush from work. He's name is Alberto. He's tall, white and cute. Firm ass by the way. He said he jogs everyday too just to stay in shape. Sexay! :) I recently found out that his dad is actually a friend of my dad. Our dads used to work together. One day, he was fixing something. He called me to give him a handjob. LMAO! No, seriously, he called me to give him a hand. I was super close to him like I can already see his facial pores. I just stared at him for several seconds. He was so close that I can like give him a smack on the cheeks already.
I've actually had a crush on him eversince his first day at work. One day he was doing something on the patio of our work and I went there to help him. He asked me if our boss ordered me to help him. I said no, but if he doens't want me there, then I'll just leave. He said no. *blush*
He was playing with the water hose. He splashed water on me, which he didn't actually intended. I got pissed off (drama queen lol). I had to walk away to change. He called me but I never looked back.
Then I saw him on the parking area and he said sorry. I said it's fine. I asked him to go shower now cos I'm gonna be using the vestuary too. He said, he's just gonna shower at home cos he's got a ride anyway. I asked him if that was his car. He said no. Then there it was, he asked me if he can give me a ride home. I said YES! with a doll wink.
So we were inside his car. I asked him again, whose car is it then. He said it was from a girl friend who went to Ibiza and left him the car. I asked him, is she his partner. He said no. Just plain friend. I asked him how old is he. He said 27. I asked him if he is married. He said no and that he still lives with his parents.
I know, my questions were like running into circles. Like I said, I realized, I can talk to clients and be cool. Calm. Collected. Very educated the way I converse. Yet with guys, ones I like, get retarded and stupid. I fumble through words. I stutter. I smile too much. And the scariest of them all, is I act like myself - a DOLL.
So sad there weren't enough stoplights. :( So I arrived home.
Every now and then at work, he would always be the first one to say hola to me. Weird, I know.
There is also a girl from my work who's been meaning to go out with me. She even offered a ride home too but I always reject her. My co-workers would always tease me that I'd end up with her at the end of the day. Prolly cos we always fight. hah! On my mind, fuck me! Hell to the NO!
Anyways, tomorrow is gonna be a busy day for me. Reserve ticket. Shop. Beach. Jog.
Goodnight dolls.
Love and light. ♥
xxxdoll
ps : all the guys on the photos are from Barcelona. If you are the guy on the pic, sorry. I love you. Stole the photos from Badoo. :)
Friday, July 16, 2010
Do I have the letters SEX tattooed on my forehead?
Number one : Nothing beats making a blog on your bed while eating fresh cherries at night!
Number two : I went to the beach last tuesday which is actually already a part of my daily routine this past days cos I really wanna get a little darker or tanner I guess. And since the beach is only like 10 minutes away from my place by bus. So no big deal. I would always stay on my favorite spot where all the tourists are and I'd be the only asian looking guy there. hah! Of course you have to know the demographics. It's actually infront of the red cross room. Not mentioning that the red cross volunteers are friggin' hot too. lol. Anyway, so I stripped all my clothes off except my boxer shorts, applied my sun protection spray and then lied down on my towel to relax. I felt the urge to smoke though so I grabbed a cigar and puffed it. I noticed four mature guys were walking close to my spot. Like super close. They were not really too old but not too young either. Like literally they set up their towels and all five steps aways from me. One guy was wearing a red short which prolly has the best body amongst all of them. One with plain white shorts who looks average. One in balck. And another one in a very skimpy boxer shorts. They noticed me looking at them. Then I saw this guy in a very skimpy boxer shorts rubbing his thing while looking straight at me. Like showing me what he's got there. I was wearing sunglasses that time so luckily I was able to hide my reaction. Then I turned back and snobbed them. Just so my back could get some sunlight as well. Then that guy in skimpy boxer shorts called me and asked me if I want to join them. I said no and turned back! I was getting pissed off already and scared at the same time cos they were like drunk and drugged. Then the guy in plain white shorts asked me for a cigarette stick. I gave him one. It's cos I cannot deny anymore that I don't have an extra cigar cos they just saw me get one from my pack. Then again I noticed the guys playing their cocks infront of me. For real it looked hilarious than hot. But people were already noticing them. Then one of them, in a whispery voice asked me in english (prolly they thought I was a tourist), "Do you liike cocks?" For Christ sake. Those words? To me? With all the college jocks there? I gave them FU one by one! So I picked up my stuff and left! I went home. Dang it! Do I really have the letters SEX tattooed on my forehead?
they looked like them. :p
Number three : Tuesday afternoon I met up with my favorite doll at Havana (which is my favorite spot in Catalunia cos of a vey uber super HOT and SEXY argentinian guy who works there) to grab a snack and coffee. We were like laughing loud cos of the funny stories we were sharing. Then suddenly a tall HOT daddy stood on my right and gave us a smile. We were like, huh? The smile that you know that he finds something pretty. Then he moved away to his son. Then me and my doll just locked eyes then started laughing. I told my friend that was for you. And she was insisting, no that was for me. He looks gay she said. I said no, he has a son. Desperate move but if that was for me, no need for that. He was obviously cute and reminded me of VILLAGE BOY. :(
Numer four : Today, I decided to go shopping. Original plan was to go to the beach with my cousins again but they dragged me to Starbucks. They know I can't resist an iced charamel macchiato and a white chocolate chip cookie. So I have to take the metro to go to their place. I was waiting for the train and there's 1 minute and 30 seconds left for it to arrive. It was effing hot! We were at 37 this afternoon. Then the train came. It wasn't very crowded as normal. The door opened and right there and then I saw a very interesting guy. He was on his way out of the metro and I was going inside. Our eyes locked. Honestly, I never took my eyes off him, he didn't too. Then I became puzzeled. Should I get in the train now knowing he's going down. And I personally think he thought the same way too. Should he go down already knowing I will hop on the train now. It all happened in just several seconds. He went down and I hopped in the train. The door closed. He was still eyeing on me while walking and likewise I was eyeing him as the train moves. Then I realize we were wearing the same top from Topman. Hah! Then I never saw him again. Sad!
Number 5 : I have my very first and special follower. Robert! I hate you though. I am waiting for you now on skype. Hah! I'm bored. Talk to me kiddo.
Number 6 : I tried to look up for photos to post here of the guys that I talked about which I think looks like them. I think it's about 80% like them.
Anyways, that's it for now dolls.
xxxdoll
Loveand light dolls ♥
Number two : I went to the beach last tuesday which is actually already a part of my daily routine this past days cos I really wanna get a little darker or tanner I guess. And since the beach is only like 10 minutes away from my place by bus. So no big deal. I would always stay on my favorite spot where all the tourists are and I'd be the only asian looking guy there. hah! Of course you have to know the demographics. It's actually infront of the red cross room. Not mentioning that the red cross volunteers are friggin' hot too. lol. Anyway, so I stripped all my clothes off except my boxer shorts, applied my sun protection spray and then lied down on my towel to relax. I felt the urge to smoke though so I grabbed a cigar and puffed it. I noticed four mature guys were walking close to my spot. Like super close. They were not really too old but not too young either. Like literally they set up their towels and all five steps aways from me. One guy was wearing a red short which prolly has the best body amongst all of them. One with plain white shorts who looks average. One in balck. And another one in a very skimpy boxer shorts. They noticed me looking at them. Then I saw this guy in a very skimpy boxer shorts rubbing his thing while looking straight at me. Like showing me what he's got there. I was wearing sunglasses that time so luckily I was able to hide my reaction. Then I turned back and snobbed them. Just so my back could get some sunlight as well. Then that guy in skimpy boxer shorts called me and asked me if I want to join them. I said no and turned back! I was getting pissed off already and scared at the same time cos they were like drunk and drugged. Then the guy in plain white shorts asked me for a cigarette stick. I gave him one. It's cos I cannot deny anymore that I don't have an extra cigar cos they just saw me get one from my pack. Then again I noticed the guys playing their cocks infront of me. For real it looked hilarious than hot. But people were already noticing them. Then one of them, in a whispery voice asked me in english (prolly they thought I was a tourist), "Do you liike cocks?" For Christ sake. Those words? To me? With all the college jocks there? I gave them FU one by one! So I picked up my stuff and left! I went home. Dang it! Do I really have the letters SEX tattooed on my forehead?
they looked like them. :p
Number three : Tuesday afternoon I met up with my favorite doll at Havana (which is my favorite spot in Catalunia cos of a vey uber super HOT and SEXY argentinian guy who works there) to grab a snack and coffee. We were like laughing loud cos of the funny stories we were sharing. Then suddenly a tall HOT daddy stood on my right and gave us a smile. We were like, huh? The smile that you know that he finds something pretty. Then he moved away to his son. Then me and my doll just locked eyes then started laughing. I told my friend that was for you. And she was insisting, no that was for me. He looks gay she said. I said no, he has a son. Desperate move but if that was for me, no need for that. He was obviously cute and reminded me of VILLAGE BOY. :(
Numer four : Today, I decided to go shopping. Original plan was to go to the beach with my cousins again but they dragged me to Starbucks. They know I can't resist an iced charamel macchiato and a white chocolate chip cookie. So I have to take the metro to go to their place. I was waiting for the train and there's 1 minute and 30 seconds left for it to arrive. It was effing hot! We were at 37 this afternoon. Then the train came. It wasn't very crowded as normal. The door opened and right there and then I saw a very interesting guy. He was on his way out of the metro and I was going inside. Our eyes locked. Honestly, I never took my eyes off him, he didn't too. Then I became puzzeled. Should I get in the train now knowing he's going down. And I personally think he thought the same way too. Should he go down already knowing I will hop on the train now. It all happened in just several seconds. He went down and I hopped in the train. The door closed. He was still eyeing on me while walking and likewise I was eyeing him as the train moves. Then I realize we were wearing the same top from Topman. Hah! Then I never saw him again. Sad!
Number 5 : I have my very first and special follower. Robert! I hate you though. I am waiting for you now on skype. Hah! I'm bored. Talk to me kiddo.
Number 6 : I tried to look up for photos to post here of the guys that I talked about which I think looks like them. I think it's about 80% like them.
Anyways, that's it for now dolls.
xxxdoll
Loveand light dolls ♥
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Uber
Hey, whattupers dolls?
I just want to make a quick post. I really don't freakin' know how to start this one. It's like I am.. Like...
UGH!
I never used my twitter before more than now. Why is that? Cos of this uber nice, uber cute and uber funny German guy which we'll call, Village Boy. I think that I... I've got a crush on him. *blush* I don't know.
Uber sad though, he's got a boyfriend already. :(
I just talked to him on skype with some friends and he sounded so cute. Like I wanna be with him that moment and just cuddle with him, lol. No, seriously, he sounded like someone so gentle. So lovable. He's such a tease!
I guess I just have to admit the fact that I'm only allowed to admire him from afar! I just hope I can be that person who can make him smile whenever he's down missing his boyfriend.
Uffff. Illusions. He'd never like me anyway. :(
And if you, Village Boy would be able to read this one day, I want you to know that I'll always be here for you. You can watch porn with me, lol.
xxxdoll
Love and light
I just want to make a quick post. I really don't freakin' know how to start this one. It's like I am.. Like...
UGH!
I never used my twitter before more than now. Why is that? Cos of this uber nice, uber cute and uber funny German guy which we'll call, Village Boy. I think that I... I've got a crush on him. *blush* I don't know.
Uber sad though, he's got a boyfriend already. :(
I just talked to him on skype with some friends and he sounded so cute. Like I wanna be with him that moment and just cuddle with him, lol. No, seriously, he sounded like someone so gentle. So lovable. He's such a tease!
I guess I just have to admit the fact that I'm only allowed to admire him from afar! I just hope I can be that person who can make him smile whenever he's down missing his boyfriend.
Uffff. Illusions. He'd never like me anyway. :(
And if you, Village Boy would be able to read this one day, I want you to know that I'll always be here for you. You can watch porn with me, lol.
xxxdoll
Love and light
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Shades of Blue
There came a point in time in my life that I was like a lost kid. No hope, no dreams. Where I would always ask myself, when was the last time I took a chance on something. I guess being away from my family was one of the major reason for that. But I never wanna blame that tought though coz I know, everything I did, had to be blamed to no one but me.
A twist of faith happened when I was in my second year of college. Every week, we normally have two days off from the university. I don't wanna sugarcoat anything and as a very open minded and liberated doll, I would actually spend those days hooking up with people I meet thru the internet. I bring them to my dorm and there is where everything happens. To be honest, I can't actually remember how many guys I've brought home. Not that I lost count of them but it's just cause they were so many and I now can't remember.
Then the month of July came. Something happened which changed everything for me. Had this not happened, I would have been a prostitute by now, not caring if his genitals fall on the floor with all the diseases. hah! It came to a point where I had to ask myself what I was doing. It was unsafe. It was fun. It felt good knowing everyone wants to go to bed with you. But that wasn't what I wanted. My blockmates actually never knew anything about my double life before. Neither my family and friends.
It was a secret that I know I have to end soon.
That exact time when I wanted to quit everything aready, I got to know Archer. A marketing manager of a well-known company. We were online buddies.
Being a Roman Catholic since birth, I would always go to the chapel of the university before classes starts to have some minute talking to God. Thank Him for blessings, ask Him for forgiveness and ask for some little favors! lol. Then I asked Him one day. To please give me a sign. If I meet this Archer guy and he's wearing my favorite color (then was blue) then I'd take him seriously. I'll stop fooling around. I promised.
Then the day came. We arranged a meeting infront of McDonald's near my unviersity. To my surprise, he was wearing a blue t-shirt, blue jeans, and blue rubber shoes. Plus he had a blue oakley glasses. I literally held my jaw on it's place. I thought wow! God answered me. But I was like, damn! I only asked for a blue t-shirt. Never asked for everything in blue! That time I was puzzeled at the same time scared. I never had a boyfriend before. No serious relationships. No hassels. But, could it be him?
We introduced ourselves. I asked him if he would like to go to my place. We actually did. He was though in a hurry cos he was supposed to watch a basketball game. Then I found myself lying beside him in my bed. Kissing him. Not knowing who he really was! What's he into. What he does. Then he left. For me, it was a feeling of this could be it. For him, I didn't know. He was too vague.
Then several days passed. I had my toungue peirced then by the way. I got a call from him, inviting me to go to his place. I was afraid at the same time excited. I told my best buddy at that time who happened to be a girl (who emailed me back the break up letter I previously posted here) to accompany me and sleep there too cos I was really tensed. Luckily, she agreed.
So we went to his place. And with more surprises from God, I entered his room. F*ck! His room was painted blue. From the walls to the cabinets. Pillow covers and comforter were also blue. I was like, oh God! Come on! You flooded me with signs. I was just asking for one! lol.
To make the story short, July 11 we committed to be in a relationship. I spent most of the time at his place. After school, he would pick me up. Usually I get off school very late cos law classes were normally done at nights. My blockmates were starting to question me who picks me up after school. Cos they would see different cars picking me up. Okay, let's say, he was financially stable. A very hot bachelor!
Since he goes to the gym at nights too, he sometimes leave me on his bedroom alone. Watching TV. Studying. I was like a plain housewife! We would have breakfasts together. Dinner together. Go out together. Everything seemed to be perfect!
During our monthsaries, I would pretend asleep on his bedroom and when he arrives from the gym, he would see a boquet of flowers lying next to me. I would make breakfasts for him. We watched basketball games together. It was so weird thinking everything was so perfect! Like a script written.
To be continued..
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxdoll
A twist of faith happened when I was in my second year of college. Every week, we normally have two days off from the university. I don't wanna sugarcoat anything and as a very open minded and liberated doll, I would actually spend those days hooking up with people I meet thru the internet. I bring them to my dorm and there is where everything happens. To be honest, I can't actually remember how many guys I've brought home. Not that I lost count of them but it's just cause they were so many and I now can't remember.
Then the month of July came. Something happened which changed everything for me. Had this not happened, I would have been a prostitute by now, not caring if his genitals fall on the floor with all the diseases. hah! It came to a point where I had to ask myself what I was doing. It was unsafe. It was fun. It felt good knowing everyone wants to go to bed with you. But that wasn't what I wanted. My blockmates actually never knew anything about my double life before. Neither my family and friends.
It was a secret that I know I have to end soon.
That exact time when I wanted to quit everything aready, I got to know Archer. A marketing manager of a well-known company. We were online buddies.
Being a Roman Catholic since birth, I would always go to the chapel of the university before classes starts to have some minute talking to God. Thank Him for blessings, ask Him for forgiveness and ask for some little favors! lol. Then I asked Him one day. To please give me a sign. If I meet this Archer guy and he's wearing my favorite color (then was blue) then I'd take him seriously. I'll stop fooling around. I promised.
Then the day came. We arranged a meeting infront of McDonald's near my unviersity. To my surprise, he was wearing a blue t-shirt, blue jeans, and blue rubber shoes. Plus he had a blue oakley glasses. I literally held my jaw on it's place. I thought wow! God answered me. But I was like, damn! I only asked for a blue t-shirt. Never asked for everything in blue! That time I was puzzeled at the same time scared. I never had a boyfriend before. No serious relationships. No hassels. But, could it be him?
We introduced ourselves. I asked him if he would like to go to my place. We actually did. He was though in a hurry cos he was supposed to watch a basketball game. Then I found myself lying beside him in my bed. Kissing him. Not knowing who he really was! What's he into. What he does. Then he left. For me, it was a feeling of this could be it. For him, I didn't know. He was too vague.
Then several days passed. I had my toungue peirced then by the way. I got a call from him, inviting me to go to his place. I was afraid at the same time excited. I told my best buddy at that time who happened to be a girl (who emailed me back the break up letter I previously posted here) to accompany me and sleep there too cos I was really tensed. Luckily, she agreed.
So we went to his place. And with more surprises from God, I entered his room. F*ck! His room was painted blue. From the walls to the cabinets. Pillow covers and comforter were also blue. I was like, oh God! Come on! You flooded me with signs. I was just asking for one! lol.
To make the story short, July 11 we committed to be in a relationship. I spent most of the time at his place. After school, he would pick me up. Usually I get off school very late cos law classes were normally done at nights. My blockmates were starting to question me who picks me up after school. Cos they would see different cars picking me up. Okay, let's say, he was financially stable. A very hot bachelor!
Since he goes to the gym at nights too, he sometimes leave me on his bedroom alone. Watching TV. Studying. I was like a plain housewife! We would have breakfasts together. Dinner together. Go out together. Everything seemed to be perfect!
During our monthsaries, I would pretend asleep on his bedroom and when he arrives from the gym, he would see a boquet of flowers lying next to me. I would make breakfasts for him. We watched basketball games together. It was so weird thinking everything was so perfect! Like a script written.
To be continued..
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxdoll
Thursday, July 08, 2010
Kiss Slowly and Love Deeply
"The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to. Don't fall for someone unless they're willing to catch you. The thing about falling in love is that if you do it right, you'll never hit the ground. Life is too short to be anything but happy. So kiss slowly. Love deeply. Forgive quickly. Take chances & never have regrets. Forget the past but remember what it taught you. Sometimes, you just have to smile : ), pretend everything's okay, hold back the tears and walk away. If you want TRUE LOVE you must go through the pain. Men were made from God's rib, not from his head to be superior, not from his feet to be walked on, but from his side to be equal, from under the arm to be protected, and from next to the heart... to be loved!"
- AUTHOR UNKNOWN -
Ain't it lovely?
Well, aside from the fact that it's 4:17 am and I am still wide awake eating cherries, I guess I also wanna share my desktop background now :
Sexxxxaaayyy :)
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxdoll
- AUTHOR UNKNOWN -
Ain't it lovely?
Well, aside from the fact that it's 4:17 am and I am still wide awake eating cherries, I guess I also wanna share my desktop background now :
Sexxxxaaayyy :)
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxdoll
Sunday, July 04, 2010
First Gay Break-Up
"So easy to describe yet tedious to understand. He is a D-desperate C-creature *dc:my intials" who loiters around the world and indefatigably makes people happy. In the bad light however, shall I say, countless of the populace abhors him. Why? well, he probably just stands out in a crowd and steals limelight from them. And on the brighter side, he is just one "doll" who would want to make a difference in this world and I myself would bank on it. No doubts, he will no longer be one HELL DC (as expounded in the acronym above) but one "doll" whose name has touched a million lives and killed a million others. If there's one person who does not need the sun to make me smile, that will be this "doll"!"- Archer
Sweet isn't it? That was from my first ever boyfriend and let's call him Archer.
The first few days of my break up with him wasn't actually as hard as I thought it would be. Prolly becuase I broke up with him to be with somebody I thought was way better than him. But unfortunately, the guy I chose to be with was no much better than an asshole bad-looking gangsta boy. hah! I love my exes though. On my end, I still treat them as friends. They have all taught me different lessons in life, different means and ways to survive.
The relationship I had with Archer was the first and the finest of all the relationships I've had. No questions asked. I spent 6 months with him. During this period we lived in together. He was like Richard Gere and I was like Julia Roberts from the movie "Pretty Woman" if you can understand that.
I left him, becuase I was actually a third wheel. He was in a relationship with a commercial model. There even came a time where all of us three would sleep in a single bed. The former one not knowing I am in a relationship with Archer as well. December of 2005, I gave up on Archer. But the official break up happened on January 22, 2006 - the same night I fell inlove with that gangsta' boy, who i also spent six months with.
And after more than five years, I was albe to read his break up letter for me again and I wanna share the drama to my dolls :)
Baby,
My eyes may be hurting, I may be feeling a different coldness. My body shivering from too much anxiety. But those won’t stop me from loving you so.
I perfectly can be described as weak for I may have had shed sea of tears. Living life with nothing but love inside me, uncertain of the right time to share.
Admittedly, you may have heard this a number of times, it may be passé but at this point, this is my biggest regret. I’ve been asking too many questions, why I ended up being the unknown me. It’s just inexplicable how facilely I have transformed into something or someone you can easily abhor. One whole year, I’ve worn the mask which I thought can save me from insults and embarrassment. Instead, brought me to my worst nightmare.
Baby, I know that I'm no longer the “Archer” that you used to know. I know that at some point in your life, you once loved that “Archer” without hesitations about his totality as a person. I just do hope you still remember that good side of your “Archer“ and leaving the bad ones behind.
Baby, I broke numerous promises. Please give the last chance, which equals to one life I have. I can’t imagine a life without you now. This maybe the first day without you and with this writing, I want you to picture what my heart is telling the world : that I cannot live without “DOLL”.
I did not do anything significant this day, but just thinking about you. Thinking how you feel, what you’re doing and if you still love me. If only my brain and my heart can explode not trying to get hold of the emotions I feel and the questions I think of.
Baby, I’m not even sure about what’s life the following day. I leave it up to God and I offer my life to him now that I’m nowhere but I would swear to him that I won’t waste the life He granted me. I guess, I have to leave this day with my feeling written on this paper. My body can no longer sustain the exhaustion I feel. I have to prepare for tomorrows challenges, which I know, will be a more tedious one.
I love you so much Baby!!!
Love lots,
Archer
Awwwwww, I know, right? Just hits every damn spot of the heart.
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxdoll
Sweet isn't it? That was from my first ever boyfriend and let's call him Archer.
The first few days of my break up with him wasn't actually as hard as I thought it would be. Prolly becuase I broke up with him to be with somebody I thought was way better than him. But unfortunately, the guy I chose to be with was no much better than an asshole bad-looking gangsta boy. hah! I love my exes though. On my end, I still treat them as friends. They have all taught me different lessons in life, different means and ways to survive.
The relationship I had with Archer was the first and the finest of all the relationships I've had. No questions asked. I spent 6 months with him. During this period we lived in together. He was like Richard Gere and I was like Julia Roberts from the movie "Pretty Woman" if you can understand that.
I left him, becuase I was actually a third wheel. He was in a relationship with a commercial model. There even came a time where all of us three would sleep in a single bed. The former one not knowing I am in a relationship with Archer as well. December of 2005, I gave up on Archer. But the official break up happened on January 22, 2006 - the same night I fell inlove with that gangsta' boy, who i also spent six months with.
And after more than five years, I was albe to read his break up letter for me again and I wanna share the drama to my dolls :)
Baby,
My eyes may be hurting, I may be feeling a different coldness. My body shivering from too much anxiety. But those won’t stop me from loving you so.
I perfectly can be described as weak for I may have had shed sea of tears. Living life with nothing but love inside me, uncertain of the right time to share.
Admittedly, you may have heard this a number of times, it may be passé but at this point, this is my biggest regret. I’ve been asking too many questions, why I ended up being the unknown me. It’s just inexplicable how facilely I have transformed into something or someone you can easily abhor. One whole year, I’ve worn the mask which I thought can save me from insults and embarrassment. Instead, brought me to my worst nightmare.
Baby, I know that I'm no longer the “Archer” that you used to know. I know that at some point in your life, you once loved that “Archer” without hesitations about his totality as a person. I just do hope you still remember that good side of your “Archer“ and leaving the bad ones behind.
Baby, I broke numerous promises. Please give the last chance, which equals to one life I have. I can’t imagine a life without you now. This maybe the first day without you and with this writing, I want you to picture what my heart is telling the world : that I cannot live without “DOLL”.
I did not do anything significant this day, but just thinking about you. Thinking how you feel, what you’re doing and if you still love me. If only my brain and my heart can explode not trying to get hold of the emotions I feel and the questions I think of.
Baby, I’m not even sure about what’s life the following day. I leave it up to God and I offer my life to him now that I’m nowhere but I would swear to him that I won’t waste the life He granted me. I guess, I have to leave this day with my feeling written on this paper. My body can no longer sustain the exhaustion I feel. I have to prepare for tomorrows challenges, which I know, will be a more tedious one.
I love you so much Baby!!!
Love lots,
Archer
Awwwwww, I know, right? Just hits every damn spot of the heart.
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxdoll
Friday, July 02, 2010
I can be a tease, but I really wanna please you.
Whattup dolls? How's everyone?
It's been so hot lately here in BCN, like I wanted to go out of the country just to escape summer cos it's not funny anymore. Like everyday, my balls get sweaty. hah!
Anyway, I'm just left with seven more days and I am officially on vacation! Whoohoo! At last. Well, it will be from July 8 up till September 15. I know, be envy dolls. I will be soon flying to my home country and then prolly go to Italy for some days. I've been meaning to meet some of my dolls there lately.
I have an Italian-American friend who lives in BCN now. And lots of thanks to him I got to know a super hot french lad which we'll call, uhm, "PETE".
Pete, as he describes himself, is a 19 almost 20 year old guy living in UK now but he's actualy french. He's got dark brown hair and dark brown eyes. He likes rock (he's actually a lead singer of a band if I am not mistaken), drugs, art, and thinness. He's got lots of tattoos and infact his chest is all covered up with ink. He said his style comes from scene kid movement (or emo as they call it). His hobbies? Sex with girls. Yes, he said he was straight.
To be honest, I have never been turned on by an emo before. But I was surprised that Pete here, amazed me in so many ways. I personally think that Pete smells good even if he looks trashy. lol. He loves people, whether they may be black or white. Gay or straight. He loves to be loved as well. That's why when I asked him if he wants me to love him, he said yes! Unfortunately, he's got a girlfriend and I told him I don't want to be a third wheel. Besides, he's in UK and I'm in BCN. He's been here once though.
How did I get to know him? I was checking Joey's (Italian-American friend who lives in BCN) facebook account and saw Pete there. I added him out of nowhere. I never actually had the chance to talk to him before but seeing his pics, Damn! He's one fine hell of a hot emo kid.
Then one day, I was checking a porn site for PLU (people like us) and was surprised to see a video of Pete jerking off. This site actualy just posts videos of hot guys from xTube. I was stunned. My jaw dropped. I really really wanted to talk about it to him but I was scared and shy to ask him plus I thought he was a typical snobbish french guy. But what the, I still tried talking to him. I added him in my msn.
There I found out that he actually does cam shows for both girls and boys. I asked why. He said for money. I became sad. Seriously.
He charges 10 euros for a cam show. He said old english guys actually love to see him masturbate in front of the cam and would pay him for that. I pittied him. I have a lot of whys for him but never had the guts to ask him. Oh, I asked him though if his girlfriend knows about it and he said no.
I flirted with him. I told him if he can do a cam show for me and I'll pay. He said yes. But unfortunately my paypal din't work and he got mad. Sadly, no cam show for me. :(
One day, being a nice doll that I am, we were both online, and he said he was freaking horny and asked me what I want. I said I want him, lol. He made a videocall and he did a camshow. It was quick. He did it for me, for free. He said I was a lucky boy. The whole time, my eyes was just fixed on the cam. I was wondering what the feeling would be had I been the one doing it for him. lol.
Days passed and we still chat every time we get a chance to be both connected on msn. He would still do cam shows for me for free. Actually, I was so scared that I might like him. I want to say that my thing with him is not just about sex. He really has ways that amaze me and I can't really explain them which I really find wierd! I would ask him why he does these things to me and he can't give me an answer.
When I tell him to change his avatars, he will. He takes photos for me real time. He started most of the convos we had. I make him laugh and he does make me laugh to.
Had he been here in BCN, I would have dated him already. I guess he will allow me to cos we've already talked about dating once.
If one day he's gonna be able to read this blog, I want him to know that I fancy him. I have a huge huge crush on him. And get your ass here to BCN cos I wanna cuddle with you. :)
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
It's been so hot lately here in BCN, like I wanted to go out of the country just to escape summer cos it's not funny anymore. Like everyday, my balls get sweaty. hah!
Anyway, I'm just left with seven more days and I am officially on vacation! Whoohoo! At last. Well, it will be from July 8 up till September 15. I know, be envy dolls. I will be soon flying to my home country and then prolly go to Italy for some days. I've been meaning to meet some of my dolls there lately.
I have an Italian-American friend who lives in BCN now. And lots of thanks to him I got to know a super hot french lad which we'll call, uhm, "PETE".
Pete, as he describes himself, is a 19 almost 20 year old guy living in UK now but he's actualy french. He's got dark brown hair and dark brown eyes. He likes rock (he's actually a lead singer of a band if I am not mistaken), drugs, art, and thinness. He's got lots of tattoos and infact his chest is all covered up with ink. He said his style comes from scene kid movement (or emo as they call it). His hobbies? Sex with girls. Yes, he said he was straight.
To be honest, I have never been turned on by an emo before. But I was surprised that Pete here, amazed me in so many ways. I personally think that Pete smells good even if he looks trashy. lol. He loves people, whether they may be black or white. Gay or straight. He loves to be loved as well. That's why when I asked him if he wants me to love him, he said yes! Unfortunately, he's got a girlfriend and I told him I don't want to be a third wheel. Besides, he's in UK and I'm in BCN. He's been here once though.
How did I get to know him? I was checking Joey's (Italian-American friend who lives in BCN) facebook account and saw Pete there. I added him out of nowhere. I never actually had the chance to talk to him before but seeing his pics, Damn! He's one fine hell of a hot emo kid.
Then one day, I was checking a porn site for PLU (people like us) and was surprised to see a video of Pete jerking off. This site actualy just posts videos of hot guys from xTube. I was stunned. My jaw dropped. I really really wanted to talk about it to him but I was scared and shy to ask him plus I thought he was a typical snobbish french guy. But what the, I still tried talking to him. I added him in my msn.
There I found out that he actually does cam shows for both girls and boys. I asked why. He said for money. I became sad. Seriously.
He charges 10 euros for a cam show. He said old english guys actually love to see him masturbate in front of the cam and would pay him for that. I pittied him. I have a lot of whys for him but never had the guts to ask him. Oh, I asked him though if his girlfriend knows about it and he said no.
I flirted with him. I told him if he can do a cam show for me and I'll pay. He said yes. But unfortunately my paypal din't work and he got mad. Sadly, no cam show for me. :(
One day, being a nice doll that I am, we were both online, and he said he was freaking horny and asked me what I want. I said I want him, lol. He made a videocall and he did a camshow. It was quick. He did it for me, for free. He said I was a lucky boy. The whole time, my eyes was just fixed on the cam. I was wondering what the feeling would be had I been the one doing it for him. lol.
Days passed and we still chat every time we get a chance to be both connected on msn. He would still do cam shows for me for free. Actually, I was so scared that I might like him. I want to say that my thing with him is not just about sex. He really has ways that amaze me and I can't really explain them which I really find wierd! I would ask him why he does these things to me and he can't give me an answer.
When I tell him to change his avatars, he will. He takes photos for me real time. He started most of the convos we had. I make him laugh and he does make me laugh to.
Had he been here in BCN, I would have dated him already. I guess he will allow me to cos we've already talked about dating once.
If one day he's gonna be able to read this blog, I want him to know that I fancy him. I have a huge huge crush on him. And get your ass here to BCN cos I wanna cuddle with you. :)
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
Monday, June 28, 2010
Message In A Bottle
I just finished watching Message In A Bottle again and thought of posting the firt letter Theresa found. I personally think it was so real. Like a guy would really make this.
Let me share it.
''Dear Catherine:
l'm sorry l haven 't talked to you in so long.
l feel l've been lost...
...no bearings, no compass.
l kept crashing into things, a little crazy, l guess.
l've never been lost before.
You were my true north.
l could always steer for home when you were my home.
Forgive me for being so angry when you left.
l still think some mistake's been made...
...and l'm waiting for God to take it back.
But l'm doing better now.
The work helps me.
Most of all, you help me.
You came into my dream last night with that smile...
... that always held me like a lover...
...rocked me like a child.
All l remember from the dream...
...is a feeling of peace.
I woke up with that feeling...
...and tried to keep it alive as long as l could.
l'm writing to tell you that l'm on a journey toward that peace.
And to tell you l'm sorry about so many things.
l'm sorry l didn 't take better care of you...
...so you never spent a minute being cold or scared or sick.
''I'm sorry I didn't try harder to find the words. . .
. . .to tell you what I was feeIing.
I'm sorry I never fixed the screen door.
I fixed it now.
I'm sorry I ever fought with you.
I'm sorry I didn't apologize more.
I was too proud.
I'm sorry I didn't bring you more compIiments. . .
. . .on everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair.
I'm sorry I didn't hold on to you with so much strength. . .
. . .that even God couIdn't pull you away. ''
Signed, ''All my love, G. ''
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
Let me share it.
''Dear Catherine:
l'm sorry l haven 't talked to you in so long.
l feel l've been lost...
...no bearings, no compass.
l kept crashing into things, a little crazy, l guess.
l've never been lost before.
You were my true north.
l could always steer for home when you were my home.
Forgive me for being so angry when you left.
l still think some mistake's been made...
...and l'm waiting for God to take it back.
But l'm doing better now.
The work helps me.
Most of all, you help me.
You came into my dream last night with that smile...
... that always held me like a lover...
...rocked me like a child.
All l remember from the dream...
...is a feeling of peace.
I woke up with that feeling...
...and tried to keep it alive as long as l could.
l'm writing to tell you that l'm on a journey toward that peace.
And to tell you l'm sorry about so many things.
l'm sorry l didn 't take better care of you...
...so you never spent a minute being cold or scared or sick.
''I'm sorry I didn't try harder to find the words. . .
. . .to tell you what I was feeIing.
I'm sorry I never fixed the screen door.
I fixed it now.
I'm sorry I ever fought with you.
I'm sorry I didn't apologize more.
I was too proud.
I'm sorry I didn't bring you more compIiments. . .
. . .on everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair.
I'm sorry I didn't hold on to you with so much strength. . .
. . .that even God couIdn't pull you away. ''
Signed, ''All my love, G. ''
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Bromance.
A bromance or man-crush is a close but non-sexual relationship between two (or more) men, a form of homosocial intimacy.
Just so you know I will never ever make a blog about football games. It's just that my neighbors are watching a match and their TV set is so freaking loud.
My favorite hetero guy told me before that people here in Barcelona watch football not because of hot and sexy players, but for the game. Not like me. I personally find Fernando Torres and Cesc Fabregas football hotties and they are the reason why I sometimes watch games. Hah!
Anyway, did I tell you that my neighbors are actually two gay guys living in together. And not to mention that our flat is in between two flats occupied by gay couples. Second floor, door number four is being resided by an old gay couple who I am guessing have been living in together for ages. They are just always together and honestly, I am not used to seeing just one of them walking outside. They are almost inseparable. They have a cute dog named Pepa and they would walk her together. They really look like Barbie and Kent (I think it's better than calling them husbands and wife).
But on the other side of our flat where the window of my bedroom faces, is the bedroom of another gay couple younger then the first couple I mentioned. And if I may say, they look cute. They are natives of Barcelona because I would hear them speak in Catalan. This one's a different couple though.
Discovering them was actually an accident. At first, I thought they were bothers.
First night that I noticed them was when I was smoking a cigar and saw that their window was wide open. The younger and fit looking guy was lying on his bed with his comforter on. Oh and it was actually winter. The other guy looks a little older. He was just in a black boxer briefs. He was checking his J-Lo ass. I didn't know why but he was checking it. Then the older guy walked out to take a shower because he grabbed his towel. The other guy was left lying on the bed. And to my surprise, he started masturbating!
Then he came. The older guy returned. I thought he did it while the other one was showering just so he wouldn't get caught by his "brother" wanking his big stuff. Then nights passed. I got curious and curious about these two guys. Could it be that they are brothers? Or they are two straight boys sharing a room? But the bed was a king size not a double deck.
Then one night, my questions were answered. I saw the older guy on top of the younger one. They still have their clothes on. They were hugging, kissing and petting. Then I knew, they are a couple. My jaw dropped. I was awed with what I saw. Got nervous they might catch me.
And so it happened. Leaving their window and the light open, I got to see the full monty. A live show.
The older guy started sucking the younger one's cock. They kissed again. Then they got naked. The older guy sat on the younger one's hard member. So he was the bottom. I can almost hear the sound of the pumping. I swear to god my member stood up in attention to what I saw.
Then the younger one came. The older one cleaned up all the mess with a tissue paper and went to the comfort room to clean his self up. They called up the night.
Actually, every now and then, I'd still secretly watch them do it. And really, they are both gifted.
Tonight, I saw the younger one watching a football match while the other one's already asleep in his arms. And that made me realize the things I am missing being a single doll.
Sometimes it sucks being a single doll, so HOLLER!
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
Just so you know I will never ever make a blog about football games. It's just that my neighbors are watching a match and their TV set is so freaking loud.
My favorite hetero guy told me before that people here in Barcelona watch football not because of hot and sexy players, but for the game. Not like me. I personally find Fernando Torres and Cesc Fabregas football hotties and they are the reason why I sometimes watch games. Hah!
Anyway, did I tell you that my neighbors are actually two gay guys living in together. And not to mention that our flat is in between two flats occupied by gay couples. Second floor, door number four is being resided by an old gay couple who I am guessing have been living in together for ages. They are just always together and honestly, I am not used to seeing just one of them walking outside. They are almost inseparable. They have a cute dog named Pepa and they would walk her together. They really look like Barbie and Kent (I think it's better than calling them husbands and wife).
But on the other side of our flat where the window of my bedroom faces, is the bedroom of another gay couple younger then the first couple I mentioned. And if I may say, they look cute. They are natives of Barcelona because I would hear them speak in Catalan. This one's a different couple though.
Discovering them was actually an accident. At first, I thought they were bothers.
First night that I noticed them was when I was smoking a cigar and saw that their window was wide open. The younger and fit looking guy was lying on his bed with his comforter on. Oh and it was actually winter. The other guy looks a little older. He was just in a black boxer briefs. He was checking his J-Lo ass. I didn't know why but he was checking it. Then the older guy walked out to take a shower because he grabbed his towel. The other guy was left lying on the bed. And to my surprise, he started masturbating!
Then he came. The older guy returned. I thought he did it while the other one was showering just so he wouldn't get caught by his "brother" wanking his big stuff. Then nights passed. I got curious and curious about these two guys. Could it be that they are brothers? Or they are two straight boys sharing a room? But the bed was a king size not a double deck.
Then one night, my questions were answered. I saw the older guy on top of the younger one. They still have their clothes on. They were hugging, kissing and petting. Then I knew, they are a couple. My jaw dropped. I was awed with what I saw. Got nervous they might catch me.
And so it happened. Leaving their window and the light open, I got to see the full monty. A live show.
The older guy started sucking the younger one's cock. They kissed again. Then they got naked. The older guy sat on the younger one's hard member. So he was the bottom. I can almost hear the sound of the pumping. I swear to god my member stood up in attention to what I saw.
Then the younger one came. The older one cleaned up all the mess with a tissue paper and went to the comfort room to clean his self up. They called up the night.
Actually, every now and then, I'd still secretly watch them do it. And really, they are both gifted.
Tonight, I saw the younger one watching a football match while the other one's already asleep in his arms. And that made me realize the things I am missing being a single doll.
Sometimes it sucks being a single doll, so HOLLER!
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
Friday, June 25, 2010
Pink Sheep of the Family.
"I grew up in a very well groomed family. Went to church religiously. Was told I was, “a very bright student”. Wasn’t raised in a bad neighborhood. Then I came out of the closet, my family embraced me." - I can relate to Hunter about that.
Like I said, it's not something that they don't know yet. They all did. Everyone did. But we just chose not to talk about my sexuality. Respect it is.
As a kid, I went to private schools. Some schools that are labeled for the rich kids only. I honestly can't remember at what age I realized that I am a queer. If I can say I was born gay, I will. During those years though, I still can remember that I've had crushes on girls but at the same time I fancy boys.
More boys than girls. Early sign of bisexuality.
I spent almost all my life being surrounded by girls. I have three doll sisters and our mom raising us up since my dad was based outside the country for work. I have more girl friends than boys. Maybe I wanna say I experienced identity crisis having been with them through out my life. But then again I think no. Clearly I knew I was into boys not into girls. It was so clear to me that I was gay.
So how did I came out of the closet? First I believe that closets are for clothes, not for people like us.
I was already actually planning on confessing to my mom who I really am when I go home for vacation. But as a very gorgeous doll, people envy you and wanna talk about you. I went to a depedida party of a friend who will be in Manila for several weeks. She prepared dinner for us. It was fun and sad at the same time because I'll miss her and her kids. I was in their dining area and got to talk to a girl who happens to know my family. The fact that their flat is infront of the flat of my dad and his new lady. Likewise, she already met my mom in the Philippines when she went there for vacation.
She gave me a lot of praises. From the top I was wearing which if I can remember well, that's a top from Topman, and to the bag I brought. Admitedly, I am a doll who is thirsty for praises. Who isn't? I actually thought she was nice and funny. I even showed her my man bag.
Then like three days passed. I got a call from my mom. She sounded angry and pissed! She questioned me why am I wearing make up and stuffs. Seriously, if you know me, I am not the person to argue with having just woke up. I am a very serious bad morning doll. I calmed down. I told her that we'll talk some other time.
I was shocked. I knew it was that bitch at Tina's party who blabbed it to my dad and then my dad to my mom.
Then I talked to my mom, heart to heart. On the phone I told her everything. I cleared every bits and pieces. What made me cry is that I never got a WHY from her. She defended me. She saved me. She accepted me.
That time I knew, they have finaly accepted that I am the pink sheep of the family.
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
Like I said, it's not something that they don't know yet. They all did. Everyone did. But we just chose not to talk about my sexuality. Respect it is.
As a kid, I went to private schools. Some schools that are labeled for the rich kids only. I honestly can't remember at what age I realized that I am a queer. If I can say I was born gay, I will. During those years though, I still can remember that I've had crushes on girls but at the same time I fancy boys.
More boys than girls. Early sign of bisexuality.
I spent almost all my life being surrounded by girls. I have three doll sisters and our mom raising us up since my dad was based outside the country for work. I have more girl friends than boys. Maybe I wanna say I experienced identity crisis having been with them through out my life. But then again I think no. Clearly I knew I was into boys not into girls. It was so clear to me that I was gay.
So how did I came out of the closet? First I believe that closets are for clothes, not for people like us.
I was already actually planning on confessing to my mom who I really am when I go home for vacation. But as a very gorgeous doll, people envy you and wanna talk about you. I went to a depedida party of a friend who will be in Manila for several weeks. She prepared dinner for us. It was fun and sad at the same time because I'll miss her and her kids. I was in their dining area and got to talk to a girl who happens to know my family. The fact that their flat is infront of the flat of my dad and his new lady. Likewise, she already met my mom in the Philippines when she went there for vacation.
She gave me a lot of praises. From the top I was wearing which if I can remember well, that's a top from Topman, and to the bag I brought. Admitedly, I am a doll who is thirsty for praises. Who isn't? I actually thought she was nice and funny. I even showed her my man bag.
Then like three days passed. I got a call from my mom. She sounded angry and pissed! She questioned me why am I wearing make up and stuffs. Seriously, if you know me, I am not the person to argue with having just woke up. I am a very serious bad morning doll. I calmed down. I told her that we'll talk some other time.
I was shocked. I knew it was that bitch at Tina's party who blabbed it to my dad and then my dad to my mom.
Then I talked to my mom, heart to heart. On the phone I told her everything. I cleared every bits and pieces. What made me cry is that I never got a WHY from her. She defended me. She saved me. She accepted me.
That time I knew, they have finaly accepted that I am the pink sheep of the family.
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Beijos do Brasil.
I don't know about you dolls, but I find people from Brazil romantic and sweet. They just know which spot to hit. For an unknown reason, it turns me on hearing a brazilian twink speaking spanish. Their accent is so kinky.
It was the middle of spring and it was around one in the morning. I didn't walk too fast, wasn't too slow either. But within ten minutes, I saw myself looking up at their flat on the second floor. It was a street very familiar to me. It is near Viva VOz, a karaoke spot where we always go to sing. I admit that I experienced the feeling of excitement on finally meeting Tony's hot flatmate from Brazil. So i called him to go downstairs and meet me there because I was still smoking a cigar. For real I was so tensed that Tony might caught us and bitch slap me right there and then.
So he went down. And God, I already noticed how firm his body was. He gave me that naughty smile of an angel.
I have a manerism of winking on people or friends when I see them. Winking doll style. I winked at him and he said we can go up now becuase he's all alone. And so we did. I was following him through the stairs. No hair on his legs. His arms tattooed with stars. Perfect set of teeth. And the smell of freshly showered boy. A twink he is. (Twink or twinkie is a gay slang term describing a young or young-looking gay man (in his late teens or early twenties) with a slender build, little or no body hair, and no facial hair)
Then we entered the flat. It was a typical flat where you'd really think that boys live there. Not so many decorations. Sort of like a college dorm. I noticed it was a two bedroom flat. And the bigger one was his. He guided me through his room. Door closed.
I sat on his bed. His laptop was on top of a desk playing a house mix. His facebook account open. A mirror infront of the bed. A red bean bag on the floor with used clothes on top of it. We chatted.
So i asked him if Tony is gonna be back soon. He said, he doesn't know. He asked me if I wanna drink something. I said no. Actually that night, I was already tipsy and all due to that sex on the beach from Ebano which I heart so much. He sat beside me. Pushed me, leaving me lying on his bed. He took his top off. I was still fully dressed. We kissed.
He's not a good kiser and that's sad. Kissing for me is more important than fucking.
And so it happened. It was so intense that I've already forgotten where I am. He was big. Uncut. It was smooth.
He reached on his drawer and I saw him grabbed a lubricant and condom.
He looked at me, I said no. Not yet. I moved on top. Doll on top now.
He opened the condom. The look in his eyes clearly states what he wanted to do to me. I rejected it. I said no. Sometimes saying no isn't bad.
In my doll years, I've only done it once. It was with Joseph. And never did I do it again. Not becuase I didn't want to but honestly, I don't see myself doing it with him or with anyone else which I am not in a relationship with. Actually, I don't know why I can't do it anymore. For real. And im freaking scared it might close. Hah!
He was a hustler.
So our bottles popped. Him on my chest. Me on his face.
Exhausted, we lied side by side on his stained bed. My phone vibrated. Someone's calling. It was Jingle, a close friend of mine who doesn't really like me hooking up with random guys. (another story which I will blog soon) I talked to her in spanish just so it wouldn't be disrespectful to Hugo. Hugo got up near the door. I said I'm not at home and that I'll just call her up when I get back.
I swear we didn't hear any noise, any footsteps or whatever at all when the door to his room, all of a sudden, opened. I just don't understand why they do not put locks on their doors. How about privacy? Dang! Luckily he was standing next to the door so it didn't open wide. I realized I was lying on the bed half naked.
And with a little twist of brazilian luck, it was TOny. Shit! I accidentally dropped Jingle's call and Hugo was holding the door with his two hands so Tony can't get in. Luckily, he didn't insist. Prolly seeing Hugo in just his pink Calvin Klein boxers on.
I was scared as shit. I don't understand portugese. But from what I've heard, I think Tony forgot something and returned just to get it. Then when Tony left the pad, I was so in a hurry dressing up and fixing myself so I can leave already. But I didn't notice any panic on his side which was weird. He was just standing next to me, looking sexy.
Then he guided me outside, we were like running in small steps if that makes sense. Maybe because I didn't wanna leave yet but I have to. So we were running on the stairs with him just on boxers briefs. Hah!
I remember telling him, Tony wants to date me. I have to meet him. And now I know it sounds like I want to hit two birds with one stone. But really, I just want to have dinner with him becuase he was so nice and the fact that he is brazilian too. He said, no. He pleaded no.
So I went home. Got a text message from Jinlge and she is smoking mad!
I didn't meet up with Tony. I lost communication with Hugo after a lunch date. Last time we talked was he was in Paris watching Lady Gaga's concert. He even sent me photos of them.
SO basically, I lost two hot brazilians and dang it!
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
It was the middle of spring and it was around one in the morning. I didn't walk too fast, wasn't too slow either. But within ten minutes, I saw myself looking up at their flat on the second floor. It was a street very familiar to me. It is near Viva VOz, a karaoke spot where we always go to sing. I admit that I experienced the feeling of excitement on finally meeting Tony's hot flatmate from Brazil. So i called him to go downstairs and meet me there because I was still smoking a cigar. For real I was so tensed that Tony might caught us and bitch slap me right there and then.
So he went down. And God, I already noticed how firm his body was. He gave me that naughty smile of an angel.
I have a manerism of winking on people or friends when I see them. Winking doll style. I winked at him and he said we can go up now becuase he's all alone. And so we did. I was following him through the stairs. No hair on his legs. His arms tattooed with stars. Perfect set of teeth. And the smell of freshly showered boy. A twink he is. (Twink or twinkie is a gay slang term describing a young or young-looking gay man (in his late teens or early twenties) with a slender build, little or no body hair, and no facial hair)
Then we entered the flat. It was a typical flat where you'd really think that boys live there. Not so many decorations. Sort of like a college dorm. I noticed it was a two bedroom flat. And the bigger one was his. He guided me through his room. Door closed.
I sat on his bed. His laptop was on top of a desk playing a house mix. His facebook account open. A mirror infront of the bed. A red bean bag on the floor with used clothes on top of it. We chatted.
So i asked him if Tony is gonna be back soon. He said, he doesn't know. He asked me if I wanna drink something. I said no. Actually that night, I was already tipsy and all due to that sex on the beach from Ebano which I heart so much. He sat beside me. Pushed me, leaving me lying on his bed. He took his top off. I was still fully dressed. We kissed.
He's not a good kiser and that's sad. Kissing for me is more important than fucking.
And so it happened. It was so intense that I've already forgotten where I am. He was big. Uncut. It was smooth.
He reached on his drawer and I saw him grabbed a lubricant and condom.
He looked at me, I said no. Not yet. I moved on top. Doll on top now.
He opened the condom. The look in his eyes clearly states what he wanted to do to me. I rejected it. I said no. Sometimes saying no isn't bad.
In my doll years, I've only done it once. It was with Joseph. And never did I do it again. Not becuase I didn't want to but honestly, I don't see myself doing it with him or with anyone else which I am not in a relationship with. Actually, I don't know why I can't do it anymore. For real. And im freaking scared it might close. Hah!
He was a hustler.
So our bottles popped. Him on my chest. Me on his face.
Exhausted, we lied side by side on his stained bed. My phone vibrated. Someone's calling. It was Jingle, a close friend of mine who doesn't really like me hooking up with random guys. (another story which I will blog soon) I talked to her in spanish just so it wouldn't be disrespectful to Hugo. Hugo got up near the door. I said I'm not at home and that I'll just call her up when I get back.
I swear we didn't hear any noise, any footsteps or whatever at all when the door to his room, all of a sudden, opened. I just don't understand why they do not put locks on their doors. How about privacy? Dang! Luckily he was standing next to the door so it didn't open wide. I realized I was lying on the bed half naked.
And with a little twist of brazilian luck, it was TOny. Shit! I accidentally dropped Jingle's call and Hugo was holding the door with his two hands so Tony can't get in. Luckily, he didn't insist. Prolly seeing Hugo in just his pink Calvin Klein boxers on.
I was scared as shit. I don't understand portugese. But from what I've heard, I think Tony forgot something and returned just to get it. Then when Tony left the pad, I was so in a hurry dressing up and fixing myself so I can leave already. But I didn't notice any panic on his side which was weird. He was just standing next to me, looking sexy.
Then he guided me outside, we were like running in small steps if that makes sense. Maybe because I didn't wanna leave yet but I have to. So we were running on the stairs with him just on boxers briefs. Hah!
I remember telling him, Tony wants to date me. I have to meet him. And now I know it sounds like I want to hit two birds with one stone. But really, I just want to have dinner with him becuase he was so nice and the fact that he is brazilian too. He said, no. He pleaded no.
So I went home. Got a text message from Jinlge and she is smoking mad!
I didn't meet up with Tony. I lost communication with Hugo after a lunch date. Last time we talked was he was in Paris watching Lady Gaga's concert. He even sent me photos of them.
SO basically, I lost two hot brazilians and dang it!
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Meanwhiles
At the age of 24, I've been through alot. Yada yada yada, like what all the geeks say, life's full of ups and downs. But still, having been throuh alot already, I still search for that beauty from above, something like when I wake up, I can say "this time I got it right and that my life has a new meaning".
I'm a hopeless romantic doll. Every girl hearted people are, I guess.
I just came out to my mom and sisters recently. Not that they didn't know it eversince but I guess we just chose not to talk about my sexuality. They respected me. Accepted me. I'll talk about how it happened some other time.
Going back to my relationship status, yes! I am single. It's not that I don't get a lot of "meanwhiles" (meanwhile - noun, a red alert amonst friends signaling them to take immediate notice of passing stranger (usually attractive).) but I just carefully choose which meanwhile I have to be with. I don't actually know if that's what's wrong with me. I am a certified choosy doll.
There were two guys I dated recently.
One from Salamanca, Spain. His name is Angel. He works with a very close friend of mine at McDonald's, so that was supposed to be a plus factor. Why? Becuase at least I'd get to know what he's doing and he's upto whenever we are not together. I actually liked him but I didn't feel any romantic connection with him. I guess it's safe to say he is a friend material not a boyfriend material. And besides he just got out of a serious bad relationship and I don't wanna be his rebound. So one dinner date. A coffee and a chat near Universitat. A walk at Passeo de Gracia. Then over. No commuincation after.
The last guy I dated was a brazilian who spells the word HOT capitalized. His name is Hugo. A 19 year old blonde doll. I was actually supposed to date his friend but one night I ended up in his well- toned tattooed arms. How did it hapen?
I was chatting with his friend Tony for several nights already. Once, he invited me to his place which is like eight blocks away from my place. But didn't have the time to go there becuase of my busy schedule. One night, me and a friend went out and had cocktails at Ebano. She got drunk easily so we were forced to go home early. I went online as part of my daily normal and nightly routine. I logged in at my msn account and saw Tony was online. He said he's off to work. Several minutes passed.
Somebody added me on msn. "Junior - Hugo". I accepted it. He said hola to me and I hola-d back to him! He said he's the flatmate of Tony. There and then he said he stole my msn email address from Tony. So nights passed. Lots of convos. Still Tony not knowing it. And then the bomb. He invited me to their flat after Tony went out to go to his work. Since it was just walking distance from my place, I agreed. Part of the reason why I agreed is that I saw his pictures already and dang! Hotness personified.
Last words he told me is he's gonna be waiting for my call whenever I am already outside their flat and that he's gonna take a shower first. Hah! That was I guess a clue of what's gonna happen that night.
But unfortunately, I have to do laundry tomorrow. Clean my messy room. Shop. So, I'll leave you guys with the thought of what happened that night. Stay tuned . Hah!
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
I'm a hopeless romantic doll. Every girl hearted people are, I guess.
I just came out to my mom and sisters recently. Not that they didn't know it eversince but I guess we just chose not to talk about my sexuality. They respected me. Accepted me. I'll talk about how it happened some other time.
Going back to my relationship status, yes! I am single. It's not that I don't get a lot of "meanwhiles" (meanwhile - noun, a red alert amonst friends signaling them to take immediate notice of passing stranger (usually attractive).) but I just carefully choose which meanwhile I have to be with. I don't actually know if that's what's wrong with me. I am a certified choosy doll.
There were two guys I dated recently.
One from Salamanca, Spain. His name is Angel. He works with a very close friend of mine at McDonald's, so that was supposed to be a plus factor. Why? Becuase at least I'd get to know what he's doing and he's upto whenever we are not together. I actually liked him but I didn't feel any romantic connection with him. I guess it's safe to say he is a friend material not a boyfriend material. And besides he just got out of a serious bad relationship and I don't wanna be his rebound. So one dinner date. A coffee and a chat near Universitat. A walk at Passeo de Gracia. Then over. No commuincation after.
The last guy I dated was a brazilian who spells the word HOT capitalized. His name is Hugo. A 19 year old blonde doll. I was actually supposed to date his friend but one night I ended up in his well- toned tattooed arms. How did it hapen?
I was chatting with his friend Tony for several nights already. Once, he invited me to his place which is like eight blocks away from my place. But didn't have the time to go there becuase of my busy schedule. One night, me and a friend went out and had cocktails at Ebano. She got drunk easily so we were forced to go home early. I went online as part of my daily normal and nightly routine. I logged in at my msn account and saw Tony was online. He said he's off to work. Several minutes passed.
Somebody added me on msn. "Junior - Hugo". I accepted it. He said hola to me and I hola-d back to him! He said he's the flatmate of Tony. There and then he said he stole my msn email address from Tony. So nights passed. Lots of convos. Still Tony not knowing it. And then the bomb. He invited me to their flat after Tony went out to go to his work. Since it was just walking distance from my place, I agreed. Part of the reason why I agreed is that I saw his pictures already and dang! Hotness personified.
Last words he told me is he's gonna be waiting for my call whenever I am already outside their flat and that he's gonna take a shower first. Hah! That was I guess a clue of what's gonna happen that night.
But unfortunately, I have to do laundry tomorrow. Clean my messy room. Shop. So, I'll leave you guys with the thought of what happened that night. Stay tuned . Hah!
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
I need Love. I need Light.
Why am I making this blog?
Uhm, I don't know. Like I've been... I felt really down lately.
Like, uhm, I didn't want to talk about it at first becuase I don't want to give too much personal information.
But life sucks sometimes. Like when things don't go your way, like there's something you want to happen so bad and you think it actually might happen or something might be true and you dont know and it's still kind of going on the opposite direction.
Sigh. But I still look on the bright side though, giving my self something to look forward to. Trying to think about good things and happy thoughts but sadly, I can't find that much.
I wish I could like just say everything except you know, I don't know who's gonna be reading this blog and I don't wanna give out too much information and then just end up embarassing myself later on.
But it's like, it seems like all through out my life I have this hope for a certain thing, and each time a new thing comes along I get so hopefull and then end up just crashing down.
I guess I just need to learn to accept what life is and not really get my hope up too much because it's gonna hurt in the end.
True. Sometimes the life you have isn't the one you wanted...
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
Uhm, I don't know. Like I've been... I felt really down lately.
Like, uhm, I didn't want to talk about it at first becuase I don't want to give too much personal information.
But life sucks sometimes. Like when things don't go your way, like there's something you want to happen so bad and you think it actually might happen or something might be true and you dont know and it's still kind of going on the opposite direction.
Sigh. But I still look on the bright side though, giving my self something to look forward to. Trying to think about good things and happy thoughts but sadly, I can't find that much.
I wish I could like just say everything except you know, I don't know who's gonna be reading this blog and I don't wanna give out too much information and then just end up embarassing myself later on.
But it's like, it seems like all through out my life I have this hope for a certain thing, and each time a new thing comes along I get so hopefull and then end up just crashing down.
I guess I just need to learn to accept what life is and not really get my hope up too much because it's gonna hurt in the end.
True. Sometimes the life you have isn't the one you wanted...
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
The Lord is my Shepherd and He knows I'm gay.
One of my favorite female hollywood star on her movie said, to be able to write somethig good you have to know what you are writing about. I guess if there's one thing i can ace it has to be my experiences. Which i have tons of at this age. From the bitch core of myself, thousands of words can't explain and describe them. So i have to do it in installments. Hah!
So, this is it.
Confessing everything. Bare and naked.
Truth and nothing but the truth.
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
So, this is it.
Confessing everything. Bare and naked.
Truth and nothing but the truth.
Love and light dolls ♥
xxxcarlo
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